You know... not long ago my life looked extremely different.
I was super unhappy with my situation and felt like a complete failure.
Left alone by my girlfriend from one day to the next without a word of goodbye but more so with an ever present aching feeling deep inside my belly that something just isn't right... - I was 'forced' to stop.
Getting my paper from uni to put it on the wall and then familiarly follow the template which was already laid out for me - sorry, I just couldn't do it. Not one more day...
I knew & felt like there must be something more...
What's the point to follow up with something where your heart is not involved ? Where you already mentally & emotionally have checked out and just feel like wasting your time everyday anew just to fulfill the expectations of others ???
No this wasn't me. And while my friends continued the oh-so well 'normal' path, I was trying to get myself and my days together somehow...
starting with nothing but a blank page in front of me.
Not knowing what the the heck I should do now or what the next step might look like.
All I knew was - I couldn't go on like this.
I had to stop. To become silent. To go within.
And though the moment I quit I felt so incredibly free with a new unknown energy rushing through me - after a few weeks this high coctail of good feelings turned into a phase of depression.
All these 'safe' things that held me externally and gave me structure - gone... my identity was shattered...
And the crazy circus of thoughts in my head - it ruled stronger than ever before. Everything felt so confusing, surreal and overwhelming.
I pondered about quitting for a long time, but actually doing it was something very different.
I felt like standing on an iceberg in the middle of the sea slowly sinking.
But in that instant with tears streaming down my face, I realized something very deep. ..........
And though it was the scariest thing ever - facing all of my demons, thoughts & emotions head on and digging deeper and deeper into the dark parts of myself, much deeper than actually preferred...
it was also the most wonderful and freeing experience looking back now.
I learned so much in the process...
Now I see the world with new eyes, as it truly is instead of being a prisoner...
A prisoner of my own thoughts. - Thoughts that were the mere opposite of empowering.
And besides my music, I now enthusiastically wanna share with you these magical tools and mindful 'gifts' that showed me the way out of the dark into the light. Out of this black hole I unconsciously digged myself years ago without noticing.
You know the tale of phoenix ? That's how I feel...
Reborn with the sun!
All these positive little things that I was lucky to discover on my healing journey back to my true self... and which make such a HUGE DIFFERENCE for me every day anew now ~
I wanna share them with
I'm not a guru nor I like to call myself an expert ~ But I truly know how life transforming these empowering tools and easy to apply - tricks and exercises can be for you, too!
Because I've not just read about it or watched from afar - I EXPERIENCED it myself.
It is my very own transformation that I am going to share with you open-heartedly if you so choose.
These special things helped me not only overcome a myriad of obstacles in my life (past & present) but brutal periods of loneliness and emotional and mental suffering.
And with all honesty and conviction - as clichée as it might sound:
Still here? Awesome! Come closer now ;)
I know life can feel very disheartening and empty.
I experienced a lot of that after all...
But here's one thing I want you to know.
We just lost the keys somewhere along the way.
The keys to notice. The keys to feel it.
But if we rediscover them and get rid of all the layers that got in between
~ it can be Heaven on Earth.
Devine & Magical.
I believe whole heartedly if we begin to look deeper and search WITHIN ourselves for answers rather than outside of ourselves, begin to open our hearts & minds again to the plentiful abundance truly surrounding us.
If we have the courage to fully embrace & discover ALL parts of ourselves one step at a time instead of running away from them and hiding... if we choose LOVE instead of fear. Everyday anew...
if we finally say YES to ourselves and life - Life says YES to us!
Before you put your email in here's a little warning though:
The choice as always - is Yours.
Something needs to change .
I need to change .
Life never felt better
This life we've been given is a pure Miracle
You might find the most precious luminous
diamond in the dephts of your deepest ocean...
Your true self.
I would love to help you discovering
Love & Light